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Question What You Live For

by Holding On

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1.
I'm trapped again Painted myself into a fucking corner Maybe I was so goddamn stupid Why the fuck didn't I know better? Waiting this shit out will be the death of me I know this ain't the end, torture myself again Why can't I see? With only myself to blame No- No control Fucking up again and again Turn the fucking screw If only I could change my ways Maybe I will one of these days Still I've got my vices Still I keep paying prices Turn the screw Squeeze the clamp on tighter Until it fucking kills me I'll remain a fighter But i can't complain It's me who rolled the dice Just like it's been said before "For sinners cannot live in paradise"
2.
I see pretty faces But never hear a fucking word When did the volume get turned down Why isn't anyone concerned? This situation keeps getting worse And a movement is made from a fucking trend It looks and smells and sounds like shit This punishment will never end It won't fucking end And the one thing that I don't fucking get Is how no one else gets what the fuck is wrong Why won't you fucking die You want it you can have it Fuck it, it's yours I'd rather stab out my eyes than see anymore
3.
I can't look you in the fucking eyes It just brings back the spite and lies It will remind me of how I was dragged along And fucked over since day one Don't blame me for any of this You can try to pin this on me but I don't give a shit There's nothing inside me that cares if this ever gets worked out I'm not the one to blame for any of this After all you put me through This is what I get Tell yourself that it's not you It's easier to accept Throw out your meaningless words You'll never have to face yourself I hope that your different path Will never lead back to my life again
4.
Some point in your life you forgot what it means to be alive And now you're out of time And now you're out of time I wonder what was going through your mind when it ended When you finally realized Everything you were means nothing in the end In the blink of an eye you're back where you began With nothing I don't know what it's worth and how much did it hurt To live your life for someone else You're not the things you own and that's something you'll never know That happiness was just a mile down the road Everything you had is worth nothing in the end In the blink of an eye you're back where you began Back where you began With nothing Thank you for showing me A second chance might never fucking come And what's more important? What I have or what I've done? Fuck your regrets and fuck waiting for the time Fuck your regrets and fuck your empty fucking life
5.
It's too late I've lost control, sealed my fate There's no turning back now Slammed the door in my own face Do I love or hate this place? I've seen the light And I've crawled back in the hole Now I see things so fucking bright Don't want to crawl, won't fucking crawl no more No! Now I've seen the light And I've crawled back in the hole I see things so fucking bright I sure as hell don't want to Crawl no more That can't be all I'm good for My legs just want to run Where will they stop? I don't know
6.
These scars bring me back to the times When all we had was nothing and that was fine Those wasted days were all traded away For a shot at acceptance in the world we hated Lost, confused No one understood Lost, confused Those times are gone for good Gone for good These are fading fucking memories These are so much more that just yesterdays Our lives are fading memories Our lives, I'll never forget those fucking days
7.
I've been going down these same roads Hoping I would find something to fill the void Of everything I've left behind These questions stay unanswered I don't know what I'm looking for But all the wrong steps and all the regrets Are still the same as before I'm stuck between Between here and nowhere I don't fucking know And I don't fucking care I don't know why I keep running But I know I can't stay Everyday spent trapped in your fucking world Is another wasted day I'm stuck between Between here and nowhere I don't fucking know And I don't fucking care I don't know why I keep running But I know I can't stay Everyday spent trapped in your fucking world Is another wasted fucking day
8.
Everything has gone to shit Is there still a sign of hope When mediocre is what passes for gold Every time I turn around Someone's bought and sold out to the wrong crowd Is nothing sacred anymore? How did things get this way why am I the one who pays Do I deserve this fucking fate There's no rebellion now Just go for what's safe and sound That's where success lies So just keep walking towards the light Don't even pretend to fight Marching to your fucking graves How did things get this way Why am I the one who pays Do I deserve this fucking fate Wish I could run and hide Bombarded from all fucking sides I shouldn't be in hell, I'm still alive
9.
My memory is not that fucking short Keep your head turned the other way I had no need for you then Why would that fucking change today I never wanted your acceptance I never needed it anyway But thanks for all of the self doubt And thanks for the fucking insecurity I was nameless, faceless But I remember every word I embraced the fucking day that I left all of you for good You're a living reminder of a meaningless life And I still don't want to be like you Don't bother making amends because I don't want them I cannot forgive and I can't fucking forget That was then but now I see Try all you want to fix the past It means nothing to me
10.
I wish what I heard was a lie I can't get mad, it's not my life What's done is done and what's said is said But what the fuck is going through your head What can I do? I will never get though to you Maybe others will wish you good luck All I can say is "you stupid fuck" There's nothing to say in your defense You can't justify it, you won't make sense What can i do? I will never get through to you It's not that you changed It's what you became What could you ever say Cover your past you know it means Nothing to anyone including me You can forget, I can't forget I will never get through to you
11.
I brought this upon myself Now it's my fucking fight I turned what I had going for me into nothing All the people around me became no one I dig the hole deeper and deeper Because I know no other way I find myself further and further from Where I want to be Do you remember me? I hate having these what ifs and maybes Still in my head If I had the chance would I do the same again? I don't think that I will ever learn To stay away from everything that hurt me The first time around Here it is today still dragging me down I thought this is where I would find it I was fucking wrong I have to answer all these fucking questions By myself in some fucking song
12.
Stuck here sitting all alone Thinking about the times we've known Thinking about you, you know you might be Of all the things I've done, the one right thing The last thing I want to do Is say goodbye to you Please try to understand This is what I've gotta do I hate more than anything to leave you behind But you can trust that I'll Be back soon I'm running to you To look in your eyes Will make things feels so right You know you're my best friend And when I said I'd stay 'til the fucking end You know I meant what I said You can count on me to stand by your side I'll be back soon, just one more night I can't wait to see you again
13.
They got what they wanted, an easy excuse The cost was high, but still they make their moves They say what's best for us, they'll keep us safe So we all keep quiet and stay in our place Where we have to say yes, we have to approve Ignore their wrongs and buy into the red, white and blue What will we do When they've got their boots on our necks Total control They took their inch but who knows what is next Their power is spreading like the plague Don't question the answers, just fly the flag They're hoping we give in to our frights Armed guards at each corner to defend the stars and stripes What will we do When they've got their boots on our necks What can we say Anyone's a threat if they voice their dissent The masses are weakened and deceived by fear And caught up in the calls for pride we hear Take advantage of fears, we just give up our rights The more we blindly follow, the more I'm gonna fight Don't shut your mouth Don't close your eyes Don't hide yourself Don't stay in line
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Dead Silent 01:12
I could run away and let this eat me up inside I won't swallow words and watch my best friend ruin his life But now this problem is also mine I'm done getting shut out and believing your lies Your killing your pain but your killing us too Did I waste my fucking time, what more can I do? I don't know What more can I do I can't do a thing Waiting for things to change on their own Helpless Blaming this on the world I do not want to end up alone Regret what I could have done What I should have done
15.
The barbed words never stop coming from your side of the room My life up to this point was just fine without you Everything I do is reaffirmed by myself everyday By leaving behind the expectations of this self-righteous charade Why do you waste your life Closely watching mine And throwing out two bit opinions To ears deaf to your cries I do not have the time to waste on these things You can live your bullshit life without me I've got better things to do Than worry if you're for or against What I have done... Why should I give you my defense I do not have the time to waste on these things You can live your bullshit life without me That doesn't stop you You're nothing You won't fucking drag me down

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released November 26, 2002

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