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What's Left to Let Go

by Goodtime Boys

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1.
Bloom 04:44
Burst into life and brim with hope. Step into the breach as you reach for the rope. You may live on, pretending you’re a dreamer, but I’m not. With dreams beneath imagining, my wonders here are slight. So grip tight on moments of peace on a ceaseless path, soured by sentiment and sentences past. Condemned forever to waste as a fleeting mass. You question why to dream no answer. Shatter fantasy to the floor. Breaking teeth on shards of conversation as you pour more empty blessings on a closing door. So grateful for a break in the silence as it creaks into the abyss. I follow you as we lay down these heads. Full of pale thoughts, overflowing into pails that tumble to the bottom of the frail well. Tipping the scales between what’s lost and what we’ll drag through. I’ll keep dragging through. Though you’re more weight than I can hold, I still grip on the rope with burning hands. For so long now I have gripped this rope. There’s only so long I can hold on. There’s only so long, so let go.
2.
Callous 03:05
This is a quiet house, we’ll have no love in here. Just words that explode exposing flesh from bone on skeletons we’ve hidden for years. She breathes without a sound so no one else can hear sentences scratched to the roof of her mouth. Foundations formed in fear. I had such hopes for this endeavour, so pure when they were sure. Such high hopes for this endeavour so pure, but now it’s gone it seemed a lie. This violin’s broken strings, this rotten apple for an eye. If I said it then I meant it when I said it, but time slips away from me so often these days. Handing out trophies to the hopeless caught in the grips of doubt. You are forgotten, down at the bottom, far from the trees these rotten apples, forsaken in name. I search for a new life and call it change as I breathe into the ground. You and your regrets will lay in wait as you seek little hope. Step outside and take a breath, begin this journey in spite of the rain. I pity you, those that have not loved and I envy you, those that will not love again.
3.
Breathe 03:00
As the silver tongues skin the young and white whispers wash words through your brow, I slow the tide and think of whys, when I should be thinking in hows. Somehow now is the time that always escapes me. The truth is never good enough as we watch the world burn. Our skin grows older and grey; do we like it this way? What doesn’t kill us makes us no younger as we smoulder in despair that shows us everywhere we’re not. The passing of time is not inclined to consider the risks that you took to be here, standing where you stood, with a smile that shook. Without reason. Without certainty, but questioning nothing all the same. All the same.
4.
Reunion 03:12
To stare truth hard in the face as he spits me in the eye is to see a little clearer now, not out but deep inside. Forget this blissful ignorance, there’s no peace in simple lives. Dragging these chains through the hilltops I fall to my knees. I see the horizon, the smoke from the trees. This is the path I chose to take, no shelter from the cries. So with a smile I let you go. No burdens, no ties. Free from these day of lesser men, men living in a lie. With little words to comfort, but one piece of advice; seek refuge in reason, seek it in each other’s eyes. Come quickly brother and hold your sister close. As you scour every landscape I say look not into the heavens for there is nothing in the skies. When all I have is never enough, I stop trying to be clever in twists of the tongue. Done with lost meanings. Sick of mixing my words. Just one more day.
5.
Rest 05:54
Now that all I want is what I’ve always had. I’m struggling to let you all go. I awaken here, at the edge of it all, with the current dragging at my feet. Here the waves no longer crash upon the shore. There’s nothing left to cling to, but I cling to nothing all the same. The dead sun soaks the skin on my back, but nothing here brightens me. Wash, wash over me. Now lost, I count the waves. Their coolness touches me, but I cannot be saved. Falling so silent in the tide that the air hangs still in my lungs as I sweat under a selfish sky. Rubbing the backs of these fists, clenched white onto all that I cannot hold. I only remember what’s left to let go. Floating here on the skin of an ocean. I lay here paralysed, the vessel that cannot fly. Still calling out to no one, still tilting towards the skies. “Now I am the past, so please let me pass. Just let me go. Take my last breath as i slip away”. Storms reveal a calm. Both hands release a fist. You and I and you and I. Heavy, hollow. heartache, rest.
6.
Wake 00:20
7.
Daylight 03:51
I’m terrified because the line’s been set between sheer hopelessness and mere regret. I’m scared to death as this horizon’s setting on emptiness or simply just forgetting, inside my mind i see the eyes of loss that show my future is all used up. I am standing here at the gates as they are closing with a flash of light, I gasp in awe. Burning, burning so brightly clutching at straws, climbing the highest mountain to claw the face I forgot. These arms unfold and cross my palms with fear "Was i ever, ever really welcome here?", these eyes unfold and cross my palms with reason, I am held still and condemned a heathen that cannot move and cannot think, that tries to speak seeing the missing link, searches for the words till they fade away then takes this breath but has nothing to say. I, I find solace in this night, inside my mind, another weightless sigh, behind these eyes I am left behind searching for promise in a hell, and as I die these arms unfold, palms will uncross, futures will be told. Never the scapegoat nor the crutch because as I die I just wake up.
8.
Harrow 03:16
If I lived alone living in “sin”, I wouldn’t know where to begin. Scratching at the walls, tearing through the dirt nails buried deep in the ground. I lift up my body and failing to stand I fall with a smile as the struggle ends. Content in my defeat, swallowed whole. I am a statement, that digests over time no luxury for me, senses hold, I grip my skull to clear your name from my mind, the last convulsion as I let go, with open eyes I realize; Everyone forgets sometimes, everyone forgets themselves, everybody battles with time, as we lose we cry “at least I tried”. Nothing is worth it unless it swallows you whole. Nothing is worth it unless it consumes you whole, I hope it’s worth it. Deep inside our fickle skulls we leave footsteps and bury answers in the walls. Choking young lungs (tight in it’s grip) The discovery saves us from ourselves. Save us from ourselves.
9.
Bliss 04:07
I got really tired of hiding everything we’re hiding when we really should be fighting for everything we had because everything we’re hiding, away from all this fighting might be all we have. I don’t seem to have the same stomach as you, living life in all that you do, trying to keep up just dragging feet on the line. this deceit pulls me further, further behind. when all the things that we really shouldn’t do are all the things that we really wanted to. staring into these eyes, I wish it was you I wish it was you I wish it was fine losing inches of precious sleep, trapped here watching you breathe. Blistering every knuckle, screaming from every pore "I want more". Four years two minds one heart each day lungs further apart. Eyes prized so wide open stretching out the skin as this groping city is caving in, I must be starving to quench these thirsts so terrified now, now nothing hurts. Nothing hurts nothing so nothing ever hurts.
10.
Sleep 03:31
A complex product of the age, eyes loses focus with bowels weak. I cannot stomach all of these lies, each and every cliche i speak I am left weightless, lacking a mooring. No anchor forged to condemn, me to the ground. I am left weightless, lacking a mooring. Nothing can hold me down, into the ground. Swollen. I’m swollen. Swollen with ego, Swollen with time, with mother’s blurry words and the slogans that litter my mind. And as I stare, through painted faces into your bleached out cheeks. Forget your name, forget a face. Boundaries pale to memory as we embrace. Try to remember nothing has changed, Here in these arms, this is my home. Here in these arms, all that I have. Here in these arms, I sleep.

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The UK's Goodtime Boys offer two EPs on their first long-playing Bridge 9 release: five brand new tracks of their cutting, unpredictable post-hardcore, plus a Lewis Johns-remixed/Jay Maas-remastered version of their 2011 EP, 'Are We Now, Or Have We Ever Been'.

Tracks 1-5 are new to this release and 6-10 come from Goodtime Boys' 2010 EP, 'Are We Now, Or Have We Ever Been'.

Buy the CD/LP versions and more Goodtime Boys merch at B9Store.com/goodtimeboys.

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released October 22, 2012

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